no more online game....for now

goodbye dota goodbye left for dead. thou has been good entertainment for me but alas we need to be apart. 

no i dont stop playing online games because i grow up and become 'mature' or because im moving on but i stopped playing because of the slow internet connection im having in my area. any delay or lag will definitely ruin the game especially for teamwork based game. another reason is because im living with my parents. the older generation dont understand that one does not simply pause an online game. and they only have negative view on things like games. everytime i play game in front of my father he will say jangan main game banyak sangat even when im playing only twice a week. so yeah these 2 factors are big enough to stop me from playing online game. i dont mind losing games but when i have to abandon game which makes me no different than those ragequitter, that is bad. i only abandon game like 2 or 3 times during my whole few years in ireland and those were due to internet or electric disruption but when i come back to malaysia within few months i get sent to low priority as penalty for abandoning game for few times. those abandons are mostly due to internet being not stable and my parents impeccable timing to call me for reasons that took more than 10 minutes.

now i mostly play offline games or even if its online its fine for me to leave the game anytime i want. the only online game i play now is digimon master online, a mmorpg. since i play that game alone without involving other players, leaving the game anytime is fine for me the worst it can be is just my character dying from being attacked by monster and respawn back to the nearest town. might lose item or money but thats not a problem at all. internet putus? just sambung some other time then. 

maybe one day when i have a good stable internet and live on my own i will start playing online game back but for now buhbye. 

oh yeah back in ireland i tried  streaming but never in malaysia since my upload speed is only 0.2mbps. no chance to do any streaming. 

The gamer

for those that enjoy manhwa the title should be familiar. it's a korean comic about an mmorpg(massive multiplayer role playing game) addict guy that gained the ability like an mmo character in real life. what a sweet thing. maybe only those that enjoy rpg understand this. i also enjoy these kind of games as it lets you explore and discover a different world while at the same time building your character to survive and complete the missions in the game. i remember i used to go for adventures during my primary school time like playing at the jkr storage site. the area is filled with tong drums and left with overgrown semak. so i go walking around the semak climbing the drums just like having adventure. looking back right now it is just a small place with nothing except drums and semak. anyway, im not that fortunate to be able to play games as much as i like. normal people see me like a gamer because i play game but the fact that the number of games ive played can be counted with hands and for someone that says he likes rpg based game to never play any of the final fantasy game... he's just a wannabe gamer. well, at least thats how i think those hardcore gamers look at me. its not easy to play game when people around have a negative view of games especially your parents. i ended up making my own board rpg game using the buku petak-petak during my primary school and i became the game master. didnt know these things exist in real life at that time until years later when i get into college and university. lol what a feat.

anyway, the bad thing about rpg game is that it requires a lot of time to play the game because youre like living in an alternate life virtually and that can lead to abandoning your real life. so what i do is i usually play my own games in real life that only i know and it is inside my head. taking life is a game literally. as such i cant deny that the real life is just like one big massive mmorpg which people from different races grow up and build their character in this world. the differences is the end of the character because we are free to do whatever we want in this world. you can be a good person or you can be a bad person you can go on adventures or you can settle down at a place and become a merchant or work to produce things or you can just be a trash character that simply exist to exist not to do anything bidding time and go offline silently too. it's all up to us.  i look at the continents like different servers and stuffs like religions are like guilds where people get connected and each of them has their own rules that one has to follow. our occupation would be our class. all the errands would be like the quests as we have to grind to increase our stats to meet the requirement to go to the next level such as entering university or changing class from a student into something else like doctors or engineers. this mmo called life is so vast and free that lots of people see it as too hard and boring because you have to set your own goal and make your own storyline whereas in the game the storyline are mostly set and we just have to explore to unlock and follow the storyline. if only we can set our own goal in life then we can work to acieve the goal and at the same time enjoy what life gives to us.

so, what do you want in your life?

novel reading period

yeay i am so free that i spend most of my time reading novel. managed to finish 1 whole novel series in a week and it took me only 2 days to finish my last novel. i spent whole day lying around golek-golek while reading novel from dawn to midnight. i think im gonna take a break from reading novel and do some physical activities. lol lying around too much is not good for me. anyway, yeay wish i can finish reading OHCM in just 2 days as the novel is bigger and thicker compared to that book but it took me more than 3 years to khatam it lol. too bad. oh yeah, my room was like a cafe with jazz music 24/7 as i was reading non stop though the only available drinks are 3in1 ovaltine haha. now setting up a new goal for next stuffs. ^^

everybody got their something by Nikka Costa

belanja

since im not having a regular job and the money i get is gitu2 je. staying in kl is very costly for me. i dont really care about the expenditure as im still in holiday mode spending money as i like from what i have but if i were to really calculate and spend money wisely just from my earning without denting my bank acc even a bit i will have to live on bread and crackers only or maybe less than that. anyway, my stay in kl is coming to an end i guess depending what happen in the future. maybe i get lucky and can continue my stay here in kl... well que sera sera whatever will be, will be.

anyway, i can finally draw again using paint as the jagged lines disappear after i tick the assist mouse sensitivity in the setting. so now its up to my hand to be able to draw smoothly and beautifully though i must admit after so long it is hard to draw using mouse lol.

PRAISE THE SUN!!!!!!!

paint

I'm required to do lots of stuffs involving computer stuffs like making video or pamphlets so my skill in paint come in handy when it comes to simple pic editing but that makes me want to play with paint more and im reminded again why i stopped using paint now. i dont know whether its the mouse or what but i cant make smooth line anymore in paint whenever it involves diagonal line be it straight or not. so yeah i totally stopped since i dont know what causes this thing. it has been annoying me so much that i dont even use the brush or pen or any option from that area in paint. i just use it to cut, move, and paste pictures only now... ughhh whyyy?

the SAI software that i downloaded ages ago has already expired and i still dont know how to use it. tried to watch my friend use SAI but internet in Malaysia didnt allow it and she no longer do this things i guess. busy with life so meh. paint.net...... i kinda forget its existence to be honest. ehehehe

it might not be obvious here but only the right most line is smooth. even then it is not that smooth and the rest are jagged line. I really have no idea why this happen. tried increasing and decreasing speed of drawing the line as i suspect it might be my hand not being stable and shaky enough. still the same jagged line everywhere regardless of the speed. some smooth lines may appear but theyre just not consistent

lore of the game

as usual i try to indulge in the lore of the games im playing and dark souls lore is very interesting as everything is unclear and lots of theory surfaced, some seems plausible, some absolutely wrong but nevertheless i still enjoy it. cant wait to know about dark souls 2 but i will have to play the game first.

the opening video

and then i found this....

In the age of dopeness, the world was super strict… clouded by fog. A land of suburbs, mansions, and everlasting po-po. But then there was dank, and with it came disparity. High, and low. Trippin, and stable. And of course, Po, and Ghetto. Creatures approached, and found the souls of gangstas in the fire. Nito, Ravelord of the Club. The Bitch of Izalith, and her clique. Gwyn, lord of the Dank, and his faithful crew. With the souls of gangstas they challenged the po-po. Gryn’s mighty weed tore apart their police cars. The Bitch of Izalith weaved great shitstorms. Nito spread a great miasma of acid and dank. And Officer Jenkins betrayed his own, and the Po-Po were no more. Thus began the age of dankness. But soon, the dank will fade, and only law will remain. Even now, there are only ganja seeds, and the playas aint high, only endless sobreity. And amongst the gangstas are seen, the accursed “Party Pooper Sign”

kepam

during my stay in Ireland i don't have any problem with musty smell since the air is cold and dry. except during summer as the temperature is higher than normal. since some people don't usually bathe on daily basis so the kepamness is so strong. i remember at one time when i was doing shopping in Tesco, the whole aisle smells as if i'm constantly walking under someone's armpit. one of the persons in the aisle must have not been bathing for a long time. this is not winter mate. thank god i only encounter such situation only once. phewww

now i'm back in Malaysia, its hot and humid all the time. so yeah the dankness will be there. after few years living on my own and now im back staying in a hostel with students my god the kepamness is so strong. you can smell it straight away once you enter the corridor of the hostel. my room is the first room in the corridor but the toilet is at the other end of the corridor. so i have to walk all they way every time i want to go to the toilet. even though the corridor is already smelling kepam but each room has its own unique kepam smell that i can smell every time i pass through the room. i don't have to enter the rooms nor do they have to open the door i can still smell the kepam. that shows how strong is the smell. well not to say my room doesn't smell but my room is one of the rooms that has strong smell. i feel so uncomfortable living in kepam smell that i make it mandatory to open the window all the time i'm in the room and curtain must be tied. ventilation, check. sunshine, check. 

been spraying febreeze and ambipur a lot to make the room smell nice. i even put charcoal to absorb smell inside the room. oh i bought some onions that i intend to use as food but ended up used to absorb smell too as i read somewhere onions do absorb stuffs which is why it is not recommended to put cut onion in fridge. since my roommate has gone back home, i put those onions on his bed and pillows and oh yeah i put the charcoal under his bed secretly. lol it's like i'm trying to voodoo the guy. it's okay. it's just a ritual to get rid of the smelly jin. thanks to the efforts my room has been less smelly since the time i first got here. oh wait, does it really get less smelly or I'm getting used to the smell that i no longer smell them? nooooo!!!!!!! i should ask my roommate to wash his bantal busuks and all the bed sheets and pillowcases.

seriously parents should teach their children to really take care of hygiene and they themselves should learn to practice hygiene. children follow role model easier not just preaching. it is sad to see grown ups still don't know how to take care of hygiene and cleanliness.