Tuesday, 23 May 2017


Dan (ingatlah) ketika suatu umat di antara mereka berkata, "Mengapa kamu menasihati kaum yang akan dibinasakan atau diazab Allah dengna azab yang sangat keras?" Mereka menjawab, "Agar kami mempunyai alasan (lepas tanggung jawab) kepada Tuhanmu, dan agar mereka bertakwa."

Al-A'raf 164

Wednesday, 17 May 2017

fwesh milk!!!!!

my culinary adventure is good right now. manage to get my hand on freshhhh milk. this is not the fresh milk from mall that is already bottled. this is fresh from cow's udder. cret cret cret moomoo.

initially I went to the house where i used to buy the milk from but the house was empty and there was no animal at all. the lady next door said that the owner died already so she gave us a new location where i can buy fresh milk. she herself has goat milk but she doesnt sell it. it's for personal usage. i'd have bought from her if she sell some.

anyway off i went to the new house and buy a pack of milk for RM5. well the price is a bit cheaper compared to the fresh milk in market. RM6.66 for a litre instead of RM7.50 per litre. not bad and the milk is fresh and creamier. you can even smell the cow from the milk lol. (i know lots of people cant stand this smell)

the result was satisfying. the milk looks clean and i finish it in one night. nevertheless, the taste of the milk is quite thin. it is not as thick compared to the milk that i buy from the old place. hopefully it's just the cow having less fat in the milk and not them adding water into the milk. after all, i'm not a milk expert to be able to distinguish them. anyway, i can enjoy myself drinking fresh milk at a cheaper rate and tastier hehehehe.

oh btw, since i can get my fresh milk supply, let's start with cheese making project. my aim is to make my own mozarella (if that's possible) so that i can enjoy the fresh mozarella at low cost. there's no way for me to be able to get fresh mozarella here in Malaysia. anyway, first step is to make paneer. indian cooking should come up after that ^^

Sunday, 9 April 2017

terimalah aku seadanya

you know when we talk about marriage, the issue on the qualities of the partner always come up. is the partner good physically? what about personality? and mentality? of course everybody want to get the best partner if one can but we're human. we're never meant to be perfect. there will always be imperfection in human and we have to suck it up and deal with it.

is it common for you to hear people say one will change the bad habits/attitudes after marriage or one will change the partner to be a better person after marriage? well it is common for me and though it is possible for those things to happen but we have to remember people dont change that easily and most of the time youre stuck with that bad qualities for the rest of your life or everything spirals down and your marriage ends up with divorce.

tension will rise quickly in a relationship where one treat the relationship as a repairing project. constantly trying to improve and making the partner better which is not much different from a control type relationship.

tired of this changing because of partner or marriage we have the ideology of accepting a person as who you are. love the person as a whole including the imperfections. that way we can avoid stressful relationship and be content with each other. win win situation. even though it sounds nice but in reality how long can one stand with the negative qualities of the partner? how many negative qualities can one accept before saying thats enough. this usually happens to those getting tied during the lovey dovey period where everything is wonderful. well, love is blind and it blinds you. when the love feeling subsided then reality hits you.

as for me i dont really agree with the concept of accept me as it is. i want someone that love me for who i am and never want me to change. that statement is a no for me. why? to me that is just an excuse. i found the term accepting one as who they are is always being used as an excuse to not move forward. in other word the person is comfortable to being stagnant. not bothering to try to improve oneself or life is a big sign of not giving a shit to the people around you and it will affect the partner. as time goes things happen and people will change. if one doesnt want to be better one will definitely aiming to be worse.

i know i have my bad qualities and so does others. accepting bad qualities, give and take, and sacrifices are just parts and parcels or being in relationship but i wont accept someone whose not willing to improve oneself just because it's one's identity. change takes time and so it is understood that you dont expect people to turn into someone else over a night but for someone that doesnt even bother to improve oneself, there's no salvation for that person and that person wont be able to help me improve myself too

Saturday, 8 April 2017

expensive habit

my  friend once said that if he were given a choice whether to be able to get a blowjob for life or eat cheese all life he would definitely take the cheese. even though he suffer massive diarrhoea after consuming cheese due to lactose intolerance, he will still eat it. NO REGRETS!!!!

that shows how tasty it is. well in my case dairy products. damn they taste so good. i dont have problem getting all dairy products when i was living in europe but man it is so expensive here in malaysia as dairy product consumption is not that popular here so it is a bit expensive. example

fresh milk 1L Msia - RM 7,  eire - eu 1
see even if you convert it to same currency it is still expensive in msia and not to mention the taste is better in eire.

mozarella cheese msia - RM 17, eire - 50 cents
you see the massive gap in price here? 15 ringgit difference. and the cheese sold are fresh cheese. the taste is far superior compared to dry mozarella cheese in msia.

so when i come back to msia bringing this foreign habit with me it costs me a lot. currently i can consume 1L of fresh milk a day. and that's 7 ringgit a day, totaled up to around RM 210 a month. its like i have the smoking habit but less costly and not producing smoke.

in my culinary adventure, i decided to make cheese on my own as the one sold are so expensive. even with that idea i find it hard to make that thing as whenever i buy milk i can quickly consume it and finish the milk. oh well i should go buy fresh milk straight dari ladang

Thursday, 6 April 2017


apparently queuing is an issue that can get lots of people in malaysia quarreling especially between the youngsters and the pakcik makcik. yeap youre thinking the right thing. i had an argument with an old fellow about queuing.

it happened when i was in a mall doing grocery shopping. got myself some cheap looking good vegetables, bagged them and went to weighing counter and the staff was not there. several people were waiting at the counter and so i waited together with them while looking at other vegetables. then the abang timbang came rushing to the counter as he realised that lots of people were waiting. seeing him i joined the queue and yes that was when this old pakcik came rushing from behind and put his stuffs on the counter in front of me.

me: pakcik. beratur.
pakcik: pakcik beratur la ni. da lama da tunggu dari tadi.

this pakcik got me like

me: pakcik tunggu tu tunggu tapi beratur la
pakcik: pakcik da beratur la ni lama tunggu dari tadi awak tu baru datang

so the argument going back and forth with me asking him to queue and him insisting that hes queuing by cutting me and then he said something like me berlagak macam supermarket ni bapak aku punya. few grumbling and then keluar awak pun sama melayu. so i said apa kene mengena dengan bangsa. then he said he is the older one and im young so i should shut up. i just said i dont care. thats why i ask him to queue.

well the arguments die as he get his items weighed and left while i sambung to abang timbang saying that orang tua biasa la x boleh kena tegur.

yeap from that incident i learnt that im still not good in debating and arguing with people. i get heated easily over simple stuff like this. i would have been able to burn other people easily if i can keep my cool. guess practice makes perfect. oh yeah i also learnt that being patient is so not enjoying while it is more fun to be rude and make fun and burn the oldman. so, be patient or just listen to the devil?

no point mentioning about the old generation stubbornness (which im already mentioning here) as the mentality aku makan garam lagi banyak apa ko taw is deeply ingrained in us which makes it very hard to change the culture.

Thursday, 2 March 2017


im a right handed person but i think im actually a lefty. it's just that i was trained to use right hand in everything since i was small. so what made me realise this is that apart from my hand, all the other body parts that come in pairs are more dominant on the left side. my main eye is the left one and my left leg is a lot stronger than the right one. not to mention that i can hear better using my left ear. since ive been using my right hand all the time of course the dexterity and the strength is better compared to left hand but i realize i can jab better using my left hand and i am more comfortable using left hand as the main controller for some manual works but that doesnt mean i can use my right hand properly. its just when you just do things without thinking you automatically use the left hand. maybe its because of that my writing speed can hardly improve after all these years of writing. still the same slow and messy handwriting. i should try to write using my left hand hahha. if i can be ambidextrous that would be cool ^^

Saturday, 25 February 2017

dream a little dream of me

though i also like doris day's version