Friday, 30 May 2014

life of a bachelor


but during exam period even these things are not touched. 

Monday, 19 May 2014


ever heard of this word? it's more like being brainwashed or something becoming a norm in your life.

I went to central mental hospital for my psychiatry specialty placement. it is a place where dangerous psych patients are sent to. most are due to homicide. when i first arrived at the gate of the hospital it felt like im going into jurassic park with high metal wall and fences but then the hospital itself doesnt look that scary as in what we all expect from asylum in horror movies where patients are held in small room wearing arm wrapping clothes. they all seems like a normal hospital though the abandoned part of the hospital did have asylum feeling environment. wonder if there are lots of ghost here hehehe. putting that aside the hospital have a lovely part like farm and garden. the patients are allowed to tend the pigs, chickens and they can even be a beekeeper. pretty cool. there other pets like dog, fishes, and turtle too. love to play with them.

anyway, back to the institutionalize topic, if i were to be in jail, i would rather come here though i might end up being stuck in here for a very long time. in fact, it did cross my mind to try to live in this kind of facility. I've had this kind of living for almost a decade that I've been institutionalized. you see living in boarding school to me is no different than living in in prison or this facility. you're cut out from outer world, your life revolves in the facility everyday, and the difference is just which place have a tighter rules. that's why i dont mind living inside here. after all, i dont mind being alone

institutionalized part in shawshank redemption

Saturday, 10 May 2014

teh susu

i used to not drink teh susu but not anymore. nevertheless, mine is more like irish tea. tea with milk only. not susu pekat manis that make the drink sickly sweet. i wonder if malaysian will like this version of milk tea instead of the usual super sweet tea?

btw, I read about what ISMA president said few days ago. seriously, I dont feel like staying at Malaysia at all tbh. what the hell? it has been more than 50 years and you're still saying other races are outsiders and the land belong only to malay? seriously? It's freaking 57 YEARS already!!! move on la... the country is made up of different races and you have to accept that. it's so ironic that we're proud being a multicultural country but claiming that this land belong to only one race while others will have to respect and be treated as outsiders... this is nonsense. you fight for religion, not race. dont mix them together. Islam never mention that it belongs to one race.

regarding your statement about fact from history, that statement is true if you live 60 years ago but not now. all the chinese and indians are born here and they have been living here for generations already.

I'm not going to touch about hudud issue here. you want to legalize hudud, be my guest. I'll gladly accept it and support it. why cant we just impose hudud law on the muslim first and see how does it go. if it's a really good law, surely others will accept them in the future. many people are afraid of hudud because they dont know about the law. after all people are afraid of the unknown. we dont have to care about non muslim going against hudud if we implement it only on muslim first. to the muslim going against this law, shame on you for calling yourself a muslim. go read the quran.