ramadhan kareem

ramadhan kembali lagi!!! and this year i get to fast at home with my family. that means i get to eat lots of stuff and different kind of food haha. anyway, i was thinking that i might be able to reduce some weight during this fasting month since i gained a lot during my summer exam but forget it, with the amount of food my parents prepared, i dont think ill lose any weight. ^^

happy fasting and let this year be better than the previous years and increase our ibadat during this holy month.

anyway, my laptop completely broke down and i have no comp at home so i wont be posting much. well, i do post less during holiday since i usually occupy myself playign games or something non-computer related and even less if i come back home since internet in malaysia is a bit slow. well, i hope i can draw a pic for hari raya this year.

The last of us

I know I know. I'm 1 year late probably more than that but nevermind. Finally, I've finished watching the game. yup I dont play it because I dont have any console to play, so I just watch the walkthrough.

I watched RadBrad's walkthrough in youtube. this guy is bad, i mean really bad but I like his walkthrough because he makes it funny. well, thats probably because I dont play the game. most people would cringe badly due to his lack of skills int he game.

So, yeah. I'd say I'm impressed with the game. It was really a great game especially the storyline. full of drama, actions, the ups and downs, I basically enjoyed watching the walkthrough as if Im watching series ^^
I really like the ending part of the game. watched it couple of timess already and plus I enjoyed the soundtrack. theyre good. Many people argue about the ending like humanity, selfishness, blablabla, I personally think that this is all about concern. if only they let Joel go talk to Ellie for the last time before they start the operation all these might not happen. Ellie might go and say yes and Joel will return alone. everything's settled. pffft talk about legality..... anyway, think Im gonna watch it again after i finish my exam. I already have suggestion on games like heavy rain to watch. they say it's a good game.

the ending scene

well for now I have to focus on my exam first. endure and survive ^^

life of a bachelor

this!

but during exam period even these things are not touched. 

institutionalized

ever heard of this word? it's more like being brainwashed or something becoming a norm in your life.

I went to central mental hospital for my psychiatry specialty placement. it is a place where dangerous psych patients are sent to. most are due to homicide. when i first arrived at the gate of the hospital it felt like im going into jurassic park with high metal wall and fences but then the hospital itself doesnt look that scary as in what we all expect from asylum in horror movies where patients are held in small room wearing arm wrapping clothes. they all seems like a normal hospital though the abandoned part of the hospital did have asylum feeling environment. wonder if there are lots of ghost here hehehe. putting that aside the hospital have a lovely part like farm and garden. the patients are allowed to tend the pigs, chickens and they can even be a beekeeper. pretty cool. there other pets like dog, fishes, and turtle too. love to play with them.

anyway, back to the institutionalize topic, if i were to be in jail, i would rather come here though i might end up being stuck in here for a very long time. in fact, it did cross my mind to try to live in this kind of facility. I've had this kind of living for almost a decade that I've been institutionalized. you see living in boarding school to me is no different than living in in prison or this facility. you're cut out from outer world, your life revolves in the facility everyday, and the difference is just which place have a tighter rules. that's why i dont mind living inside here. after all, i dont mind being alone

institutionalized part in shawshank redemption

teh susu

i used to not drink teh susu but not anymore. nevertheless, mine is more like irish tea. tea with milk only. not susu pekat manis that make the drink sickly sweet. i wonder if malaysian will like this version of milk tea instead of the usual super sweet tea?

btw, I read about what ISMA president said few days ago. seriously, I dont feel like staying at Malaysia at all tbh. what the hell? it has been more than 50 years and you're still saying other races are outsiders and the land belong only to malay? seriously? It's freaking 57 YEARS already!!! move on la... the country is made up of different races and you have to accept that. it's so ironic that we're proud being a multicultural country but claiming that this land belong to only one race while others will have to respect and be treated as outsiders... this is nonsense. you fight for religion, not race. dont mix them together. Islam never mention that it belongs to one race.

regarding your statement about fact from history, that statement is true if you live 60 years ago but not now. all the chinese and indians are born here and they have been living here for generations already.

I'm not going to touch about hudud issue here. you want to legalize hudud, be my guest. I'll gladly accept it and support it. why cant we just impose hudud law on the muslim first and see how does it go. if it's a really good law, surely others will accept them in the future. many people are afraid of hudud because they dont know about the law. after all people are afraid of the unknown. we dont have to care about non muslim going against hudud if we implement it only on muslim first. to the muslim going against this law, shame on you for calling yourself a muslim. go read the quran.

meranting lagi

you know what makes me sad? when people waste food. dont waste your food. you can never know when you will run out of food.

you know what makes me mad? insincere praises. feels like slapping them hard so that they will stop spouting bullshit. we all do that but seriously, everything has its own limit. oh btw, this thing is so common in med students it's so annoying. t(-.-)t this is one of the reason when i want a "me time" so that i dont have to listen to this kind of thing. when i say me time i mean alone, no one else.

oh btw, lama x gi majlis agama macam solat hajat or ceramah. went to one last week ^^
used to have this every week during school and college life though

and im so lazy to cook nowadays i can just microwave my chicken and eat it with rice after that. of course, add some condiments for flavouring

Al-Humazah (Pengumpat)

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang

Celakalah bagi setiap pengumpat dan pencela,

yang mengumpulkan harta dan menghitung-hitungnya,

dia (manusia) mengira mengira bahawa hartanya itu dapat mengekalkannya.

Sekali-kali tidak! Pasti dia akan dilemparkan ke dalam neraka Hutamah

Dan tahukah kamu apakah (neraka) Hutamah itu?

(Iaitu) api (azab) Allah yang dinyalakan,

yang (membakar) sampai ke hati.

Sungguh, api itu ditutup rapat di atas mereka,

(sedangkan mereka itu) diikat pada tiang-tiang yang panjang.