sad food

I had my saddest food 2 days ago. its chicken boiled in plain water with brown rice. the soup is the plain water. that was my lunch and dinner. i only manage to add some cheese to them but it went worse. oh well thats the only ingredients i have in the house.

i was moving to a new house and i stayed in the old house to clean it back so i have no choice but to eat whats there in the house.the past 3 days have been so exhaustingi feel like having fever last night. carrying stuffs, cleaning, scrubbing, sorting out stuffs and now i need to settle down on new house. which is a pain too. on the other hand, i manage to make a short table by using my friend's broken study table. with a lil bit of hammering voila, a mini japanese table(ye la kot) for me hehe. i use it as my computer table

Jelita

tired with exam.

Jelita by Kyoto Protocol

been listening to this song repeatedly

I just like the rhythm of the song

and the video is nice.

Jangan kau hirau dan ragu yang tidak tahu cara melihatmu~

somehow my rest is defined as doing house chores. basuh baju,lipat kain, kemas dapur, kemas tandas etc etc. guess i just want to move my body without thinking about anything and yeah the house has been left bersepah for few weeks dy. exam period is the period where everything is forgiven.

when exam finish

cooking procrastination

exam around the corner and here i am watching cooking vid for no reason while reading notes. damn they makes me so hungry and i have to watch out not to eat so much. btw i love the comment section for cooking vids especially when the vid involves handling animals like fish or meat. lobster vids are the best. since they usually start with live lobster and proceed to kill it. then there will be comments like OMG ANIMAL CRUELTY!!! HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF THEY DO THAT TO YOUR FAMILY? or something like I HOPE YOU GET KILLED LIKE THAT GETTING STABBED BLA BLA BLA.

i just love to see all the debates and laugh at them. sometimes it just makes me disappointed  with them. come on, dont be a pussy talking about animal cruelty and stuff like that. you kill to live and eat. what youre going to say dont kill the animal and eat them alive? thats way more cruel. and then theres the thinking what would you feel if someone do that to your family. excuse me, we dont do cannibalism, why would you roast your grandma?

mostly people that talk about animal cruelty are the vegans though. to me, the people that talk about animal slaughtering is a cruelty can never grasp the the nature. its like theyre saying all the carnivorous animals are bad and herbivores are good animals. well, it is what is being portrayed in all the cartoons where all the herbivores are cute and good guy and the carnivores are the bad guy that need to be defeated and that shapes the mind of people nowadays. screw that, there's no bad or good in killing to eat. it's all about surviving and maintaining the balance of the ecosystem.
seriously, go help the butcher in your place. learn to slaughter animals and appreciate them as food. we're not toying with them or kill them for nothing

the fish has  family too you know? it is cruel to kill it.

that gets me everytime

apparently i cried

so i was browsing 9gag and then i saw this post

suddenly i remembered a dream from sometimes ago. i cried because my friend got married. 

guess i still like her. oh well, life must go on.

playing catch

im supposed to talk about me killing but that can wait. so yesterday i played tag. with a BUS!!!

     everyday I commute to the hospital taking bus no 40 straight from my house to the hosp. as i finish my day and was about to go to the bus stop i realized that the bus will arrive in another 2 minutes and I'll have to wait for another 20 minutes if I miss this one. not wanting to wait in the dark cold evening with my phone battery about to go kaput, I decided to make a dash for it and ran like a wind i did to the bus stop that's just like 5 min walking-lenggang-kangkung away from me.
     so yeay i managed to reach the bus stop without panting and right on time as bus 40 approached me but then i realized that the sign on the bus showing that the destination is the city centre instead of finglass(my house is located after the city centre so i need to take the bus going to finglass) and then i recalled that Sokan told me there are 2 bus 40. deciding to give it a try I got onto the bus.
 
     "Sorry, does this bus goes to dorset street?" I asked as I hoped the bus driver would say yes though deep inside I knew he would say no.
     "No I only go to the city centre but that one does" he replied as another bus 40 passed us.

Turned out that the bus was right behind the one that i got on. I was left dumbfounded and the only reply I can give was "Uhhhhhhh" with my face showing more disappointment as the other bus get further away from us. The bus driver LOLed at me straight away.

      "Oh doesnt matter, we'll catch up to them at the other stop," he suggested as the bus started moving.

      I just agree with him as I'm using my unlimited buspass for the day so it didnt matter. besides, what better option can i have? after few stops the other bus 40 finally stops and I get off my bus running to catch the other bus that was right in front of me. to my disbelief, the bus just sped off as soon as i started dashing to it and as I turned to my previous bus it already started moving away from the bus stop. Damn now i lost both buses. I can just shrug as the bus driver looked at me standing at the roadside but then he was kind enough to open the door and let me get back on the bus. My heart leaped with joy as I ran back to the bus like a kid running back to his mum. oh yeah the bus driver still LOLed  at me.

    Then I decided to just get off at the city centre and I can take many other bus to go back to my house. I wanted to buy cake at nasi n mee restaurant before going back but I decided that if I can take the other bus 40 right after I get off I'll just go back home straight and it turned out that I manage to take the bus 40 that I missed after I get off my first bus. uhh no cake then.

anyway, trimas abang drebar. youre the real mvp

close your eyes and listen

havent heard of vocaloid for quite a long time

senbonzakura

i like this cover version by Lindsey Stirling too. i listened to this one first before I knew the original music is from the vocaloid haha

on top of that, new song from thefatrat is great

you...you gonna break my heart 

you gonna tear it apart

no matter what you do....